I Cant Shake This Feeling!

So since ive gotten home, I cant get over this awful feeling! I just feel so useless and out of place! I want to go back so badly, and while im here, i feel so lost! I literally wandered through my house the other day....... going from room to room and just standing there, looking for something to do! Its to the point where i am trying to avoid the things i brought back with me, and im avoiding the pictures that i got developed, just because they remind me of everything that i cant have right now. Is that weird? Does it make any sense?

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