It's Hard To Live Life Without Pants

So as i was re-reading my last post..... i realized how bad that all sounded. I want to make it clear that I am VERY concerned with what happened, and my heart goes out to them all. I cant even begin to imagine what my team was going through at that very moment, especially since it was only about 300 meters from where they were staying. I want each and everyone of them to know that i want them to come home safely, and that we are all thinking about you.

Yesterday there was a bombing in Kampala, Uganda. Holy shit. Thank God the rest our team wasnt hurt. I can't believe that there was a bombing where I was staying! Apparantly Jaki's parents have grounded her (from leaving the country)...... I guess that just means that I am going to have to smuggle her out of the country when we go back in 2 years. That might be a little difficult. Anyway, I cant believe that I have been home for 2 weeks already, the time is literally flying past me....... I guess thats a good thing, right? The body count for the unfortunate event that occured yesterday is up to 74. One of those happens to be an American who was out there volunteering with Invisable Children. I cant wait to see everyone. I cant wait to hear all the new stories that I missed out on.

Alrighty...... well i cant get our computer to recognize my camera, but i was able to get Jaki to make a slideshow of some of the pictures from our trip. I would have chosen different music, but whatever haha. You can view it on my facebook page. Just click on the little spot under my picture that says Im in 1 video.

Well, I was really hoping to get my pictures from my trip up on the computer. I wanted to make a slide show for the website, and to post them all over facebook..... but our stupid computer had to go and crash a million times and now it wont register my camera. Im so pissed! Oh well..... I am going to try and work sumthin out soon, so just please be patient with me.

Today was a little hard to get through for some reason. I think it all kinda started when i woke up and realized that i would have rather been spending the day in Uganda. Ouch. As the day went on, it got even more difficult when some people from my moms work came over for dinner. They were asking me all about the trip, and I showed my pictures to Kristen, and dont get me wrong, I love talking about it and all, but it made me miss it even more. Brenna came over and had dinner with us, and we decided to opt out of seeing fireworks, so we went to a movie instead. As we were leaving the theater, all i could smell in the air was the sulfur from the fireworks....... it smelled like Kampala. God i miss it so much. This sucks so bad.

I kinda wish that my life was exciting enough to keep this as a regular blogsite.

So since ive gotten home, I cant get over this awful feeling! I just feel so useless and out of place! I want to go back so badly, and while im here, i feel so lost! I literally wandered through my house the other day....... going from room to room and just standing there, looking for something to do! Its to the point where i am trying to avoid the things i brought back with me, and im avoiding the pictures that i got developed, just because they remind me of everything that i cant have right now. Is that weird? Does it make any sense?